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Post by Cori on Mar 13, 2012 22:37:20 GMT -5
Look, I don't know if you're even going to care to read this at all, but Ryuu I am so fucking sorry for being a complete asshole today and I hope you really aren't going to just leave us all behind unless that's really what's best for you in which case go for it and I'm sorry for posting on the site and I should just quit and give up and stop existing on the internet forever but I just want to tell you that if I could take any of the assholery I've committed back I would go back in time and knife myself in the side to prevent it and oh god this is so rambly but oh god please don't be gone forever seriously please I, I'm sorry for my hand in pissing you off and not taking jokes and being just a complete and total fuck-up but...but...oh god I don't know anymore but I'm sorry and I'm shit and terrible and please don't ignore everything forever. DX I know it's arrogant and self-centered to think I can apologize for stuff but I can't think of what else to do and I'm scared and dear nonexistant god I am the absolute worst thing in the universe and I'm sorry about that and this is going nowehre and I'm scared and terrified and...and just...fuck my life this is stupid but the fact still remains that if I could do anything to get how fucking sorry I am across I would do it even if it was to gtfo the site forever and I'm. Just. Sorry.
Fuck.
Please don't leave us. Please.
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Post by Perseus "Percy" Black on Mar 13, 2012 22:50:18 GMT -5
... >_> Cori love. Settle down. You haven't been an asshole today. At all. You never are, so I don't want to hear of you thinking that again. Okay? You freak out so much over the little things that don't need to be freaked out over. I love you. Okay? You don't need to apologize so much. There's nothing you need to apologize for.
Now, if I hear about you knifing yourself again, I will have a shitfit. Okay? >_> That's a no-no. Nobody should say that. Not even myself. It's not something to joke about, or use in this sort of context. Not with me above all people. |: Not. Again. Okay? Good.
I'm not leaving, I'm only ignoring the cbox to post. I don't think I could ever leave you guys seriously. You keep me going, you keep me hanging on. You're the few who understand what I'm going through and love me even though I constantly fuck up, or slack, or just... fail. I do that constantly, and you still like me... at least I hope you all do... I mean, that means something to me.
Okay?
I'm not going anywhere.
It's okay. ._.
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Post by Cori on Mar 13, 2012 22:54:25 GMT -5
Shit shit shit I am sorry about that - well, I guess I've definitely been an asshole now, haven't I? DX But I'm sorry. I was just so worried and I thought...yeah, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have jumped to conclusions like that but I was just so scared that I couldn't think. I still can't, really. I just...I'm sorry for everything I've ever done whether it was real or imagined and for making this dumb post and for being insensitive and
and I need to stop.
-deep breath- I won't do this again. I'm sorry for posting something embarrassing. I'll keep in line now. :<
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Post by Perseus "Percy" Black on Mar 13, 2012 23:01:38 GMT -5
/thwacks No more apologizing. >_> You haven't done anything wrong. I just don't want you misunderstanding things and freaking out, or blaming yourself when you're not to blame, or anything along those lines.
I apologize for scaring you, that was not my intention. I was playing around and went off to work on posts. When I post, I mute the cbox and I get lost to the world - I even ignore my messengers when I get into a post. I don't even know what's going on really. lol.
I wouldn't leave or ignore you guys unless something really, really terrible happened. And I'm pretty patient usually... I deal with my other after all, LOL. Unless I'm at the end of my rope, I hang on pretty well. So, don't worry about something like that happening, okay?
Again, no. You had a legitimate fear, and that's okay. But next time, why not just come to me on AIM or something? I may forget to reply due to posting or some shit, but at least you'll know the truth without making yourself regret something or feel silly, sound okay?
So far, nobody on this site has done anything to me that's really hurt me or gotten me riled up.... too much. I won't say anything else. lol. So it's okay. Really. And I'll let people know if they're pissing me off or irritating me. I won't stand for it. So if I really were going to ignore you all, I would hand the site over to Tama or something. But I'm not going anywhere.
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Post by Cori on Mar 13, 2012 23:06:57 GMT -5
-thwacked- I definitely deserved that. I know I shouldn't have jumped to conclusions, but I felt like i'd been enough of an ass on AIM and I didn't want to bug you there anymore and I wasn't there when you said that you were mostly kidding and so when I came back and read that you would never speak to anyone again, I kind of just snapped with all that fear. It was immature of me, and I'm sorry. If you want to just go ahead and delete this thread, please do. I'll stop being distracting now.
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Post by Perseus "Percy" Black on Mar 13, 2012 23:16:35 GMT -5
|D Not once, anywhere, did I say I was mostly kidding. I just... wandered off, ignored everything and started posting. I'm at fault there. So this is teamwork, sound okay? Not entirely your fault, not entirely mine. Takes two to tango, no? You were fine on AIM, You didn't say anything that bothered me nor irritated me - again, I'm patient, especially for my friends, the people I care about.
If you would prefer the thread to be deleted, that can happen, if not... well... I guess we can archive it? lol, but if you don't want anyone reading this, we can delete it. I don't care either way.
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Post by Cori on Mar 13, 2012 23:23:54 GMT -5
More like I just don't want to clutter things with my idiocy. '>w> But yeah, I'll move it, move on, and pretend like today's latest instance of Cori-jumping-to-conclusions didn't happen. And I know I'm not supposed to apologize anymore, but seriously, I'm sorry for wasting time and space here.
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