All Dark, No Stars [ Johan ]

[magnus]

Don’t say goodbye; I don’t wanna hear those words tonight
Cause maybe it’s not the end for you and I

The couple of seconds of thought was what seemed to bring everything down. He was different now; he wasn’t human anymore, by the exact definition. Would that even be right, or ethical or whatever else they wanted to accuse him of being? They were already technically cousins that weren’t blood related, and the basis of the ‘relationship’ they both seemed to want was wrong. Adding the fact that he was a Gijinka complicated matters further... But he didn’t need to know yet. Not until he absolutely needed to.

Slowly, hesitantly, he drew back to Johan and held him once again. The itch to just bite down was horrible; the urge to swallow him whole and make him his own... but he couldn’t do that; it just wasn’t right. So in return, he’d just hold him for as long as he was able.

”Don’t worry... you do everything right.” Perhaps it was cheesier than it was supposed to come off, but Johan had yet to do any wrong in his eyes... And he pushed away that part that what he admitted all those years ago was the final push, because he’d like to think it wasn’t. He had to resist the almost undeniable urge to sink his teeth in as he nuzzled him, kissing him again.

And although we knew, this time would come for me and you
Don’t say anything tonight, if you’re gonna say goodbye

[ress3]

[atrb=width,282px][atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellpadding,0px,true][atrb=cellspacing,0px,true][atrb=background,http://i.imgur.com/1TdVf.jpg,true]

Johan rested against Magnus as Magnus returned, that horrible feeling he'd had when Magnus pulled away fading. It wasn't so bad. Not as bad as he'd thought, anyway. Magnus wasn't leaving. It was just him being crazy. It was just him imagining things, filling in the blanks of his paranoid mind. He wasn't sure the paranoia would ever go away, ever really fade. How could he forget nine long years, with Magnus missing? How was he supposed to forget what had happened to Konrad? He was gone, faded away, and, one way or another, it was Johan's fault. He'd driven Magnus away, and left his youngest cousin in the lurch. He didn't want to think about those things, though. He shoved them away, trying to think of nothing at all, and the feeling of Magnus against him was enough to let him think of nothing at all. (Fade to snuggle? C:)

[/quote]